For those of you who read this and aren't my Facebook friend....I had to share this with you....
Things are looking up for me...I decided last week, I don't want to be sad anymore. Derek would not that for me, he HATED it when I was sad. So I am trying really hard to have more better days than sad days.
Am I still sad?
Absolutely.
Do I still cry?
Absolutely.
Do I still hurt?
Absolutely.
Am I trying to find joy in life?
Absolutely.
A friend in my grief group gave me a CD this week....and I must share it with the world....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3CVlv2dz3w
Please take a minute to listen to the words of this song...thank you God for being with me.....
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I listened to this song right after you posted it on Facebook. It is amazing. Gave me goosebumps.
ReplyDeleteI think you should also listen to "Address in the Stars" by Katelyn and Wil and "Love Lives On" by Mallory Hope. I have listened to both songs over and over again. You can find them both on YouTube or on www.cmt.com
At 14 1/2 months....
Am I still sad?
Absolutely.
Do I still cry?
Absolutely.
Do I still hurt?
Absolutely.
Am I trying to find joy in life?
Absolutely, a little more every day.
You WILL get through this. As time moves forward things will start to get a bit "easier", you will find different ways to deal with your grief. I'm not going to lie, I still think about Shawn ALL the time, I miss him like crazy and want him back more than anything, but...it does get easier.
I'm here if you need me. I think your outlook is great!!
(((((HUGS)))))
Hi, you don't know me but I found your blog through a really random rabbit trail of blog links. Almost all of them by people who are grieving and blogging as they go. I am one of them but stopped writing so much publicly a few months ago after a few annoying comments from my mother-in-law. So I started my own personal, private blog just to have a safe place to vent, cry, think and wander. But that's not why I am wanting to leave you a post. (sorry, a little wandering tonight!)
ReplyDeleteI was given Mandisa's CD a few weeks ago and hadn't really REALLY listened to it until this week. I had heard the same songs all week as I was driving from here to there. There is one song that talks about offering God a Broken Hallelujah and shattered praise and it made me think of how it is that we are able to "keep the faith" in the midst of our losses when we feel so broken...
THEN....tonight while I was pulling into Costco I heard the words to "You Wouldn't Cry" and I bawled all the way home with tears of joy and comfort that could only come from God. So when I saw you posted about her other song (which also is amazingly comforting) I wanted to share this song with you. Here's a link to a page that she shares about the song and you can also listen to an MP3 of it and read the lyrics.
http://www.gannsdeen.com/2009/03/31/mandisa-you-wouldnt-cry-andrews-song-will-touch-any-grieving-heart/
Sorry for rambling, especially from a stranger! I am sorry for your loss and can only hope that you will continue to find your new normal and that God will always be your true comfort.
Blessings,
Tara